the unspoken pain

hello i'm on a good mood this days and i do everything that fit me and my day i feel great my heart still beating which is cool i'm not going to blame myself for anything in life axcept loving the wrong person and obiousely he hurts me a lot a lot so it's so hard to fall for someone don't care about you and looking for you that u are so pathetic he don't appreciate your feelings anyway well boys think that easy for a girl to forget but it's the hardest thing ever and the most painful one too it's not my fault it's my heart fault damn i can control mine 

well you have no idea how much pain and screaming is inside my chest right now and i'm trying to cover it by tears or killing silence it's called the uspoken pain 

damn it i really loved u and cared about u from my heart i didn't pretend ever but it's my destiny i'm not going to fight it anyway but i hope he will build a good story & life that i always wish to have it togother i wanted that but now everything is over and he is already taken he always wanted to make me jealous so well done you always win you killed me alive thanks for the smile that you gave me when i see you in my darkest nights and also for the fake looks you win 

congratulations never mind i will find someone better then you not like you ...

goodbye forever .............................end of story......